I’m not a pessimist, I just don’t see the light

I’m not depressed, I just ran out of pleasure

I’m not sidetracked, there’s just no horizon insight

I’m not poor, I just didn’t find that promised treasure.

I’m not the one, not the one they say I should be

I’m not hiding, just not that extravagant and colourful

I’m not silent, I’m not loud, although I mostly disagree

I’m not the one that’s being blind-sided and disrespectful

I’m not scared, not at all

I’m not angry, by no means

I’m not on a high horse, for sure I’d fall

I’m not down, only confused it seems.

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